Bikini ready!? You might ask yourself, “who is ever bikini ready”, I’ll confess that I have. You see, since the age of 13 I personally dealt with body dysmorphia. I began developing a curvy silhouette at such a young age and always felt like I did not fit in. Everyone I was friends with always looked thinner than I.
I was not considered obese, but I sure felt it. I remember begging my older brother for a gym pass at the age of 15. My mom was not keen on the idea, and especially not my dad, but with my parent’s final permission and my brother’s close supervision, I began working out. I began working out religiously everyday after school and with a ridiculous diet, I began to shed the weight.
Then I began college at 18 years old and my body dysmorphia came back. With a full-time schedule and commuting 1 hour to and fro school, I began to put on the pounds again. But this time I felt like it was unacceptable because I passed puberty and should have had no excuse. I began pressuring myself to lose weight and from the age of 19 to 23 I began dieting.
Juice cleanse, the cookie diet, the Atkins diet, Weight Watchers, you name it and I tried it. I felt like I was going to be struggling for a long time. I especially began to look into fitness after quitting my awesome job in advertising. You see, I was not happy and I began putting on weight but once I left, I began caring of my body and changing my eating habits.
Sure, I saw comments on Instagram from friends on how beautiful my body figure was, but I also got a lot of Instagrammers bullying my body shape.
It wasn’t until March 2016 that I began to go to the gym religiously, again. I was confident in my body this time because of a few inches I lost, but I was not bikini ready. I had a ton of cellulite and gave myself such a hard time about it. Sure, I saw comments on Instagram from friends on how beautiful my body figure was, but I also got a lot of Instagrammers bullying my body shape.
It has been a ROUGH adventure but nonetheless worth it.
It was difficult but so worth it because I began to love me, so I chose to invest in myself and make myself the best person I could be and this time it was FOR ME!
I slowly changed my diet. I promised myself I would no longer diet and I would just eat clean. I no longer had a desire to eat high sugars and toxins in my body. I did a complete 180 and let me tell you, it has been a ROUGH adventure but nonetheless worth it.
Self love begins when you accept yourself for all of the flaws.
While trying to work out and eat clean, I met a friend who helped me discover self love. There is nothing more important than making yourself happy. When you begin to love yourself for all of your flaws, everything will fall into place. I cannot stress this enough!
So, no more diets, PLEASE. You must begin to care for yourself because you want to be healthy, not because you want to become what society wants you to look like. If you are comfortable in your skin, you are complete.
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